I almost became a millionaire last week. I don't mean a paper millionaire because the house I can't sell is appraised for a lot of money. I mean a filthy, stinking, which private island should I buy, rich. The deal was all set. The paperwork had changed hands. All I needed was for those six Powerball numbers to fall my way. I was already picking my new house, new car (or two), a vacation house (or two), maybe even a suite at The Seahawks. And I tell you what, our next in-house film was going to be EPIC. I was thinking of a short called DAD LOVED THE FOURTH OF JULY. All it would be is six minutes of explosions. Not stock footage explosions. We were going to blow things up for six minutes. Epic. Then I checked the numbers and it all came crashing down in about three seconds. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted. I think Al Pacino said it best in the film TWO FOR THE MONEY. Gambling is not about winning and losing. It's not about the risk vs reward. It's about that moment when the dice are on the table. The moment they are spinning and you have hope. You can see your win. You can feel it, and man it feels great. It is that split second of dreaming that gambling is about.
Pursuing a career in Hollywood in much the same. It's not about risk vs reward, because there is a ton of risk and very little reward. It's not about winning and losing because most of the things you write are never going to see the light of day. It's about that feeling you get when you finish your screenplay. The anticipation you have when you send that big query letter. The thought that "this one is it". It's the joy you feel when you see your finished movie, no matter how small, no matter how few people see it. Is Rainbows and Unicorns Entertainment ever going to be a major player with huge lavish offices and contacts all around the world? Are we going to have movie posters lining the halls for all of our films that won Academy Awards? Probably not. That doesn't mean we can't dream about it. It doesn't mean we can't envision that our next film is going to be the "big one". Because that's why we do it. That is the joy we chase and feel every time we start a new project.